Today officially began my fall break! I rang it in by spending the day at Pam’s house, catching up on homework, and fighting off a cold. It was really nice because it was the first time I’ve been able to wake up, roll over, and realize that I don’t have any commitments to go to.

After spending the morning lounging in bed, I decided that I really needed to catch up on my homework.

I made myself a nice little corner on her couch, and started to do my readings. Being just the teensy-tiniest behind on homework, I’ve crafted a pretty regimented schedule for myself that I must admit is almost feasible. Unfortunately, the day was just calling to me, so I spent quite a good portion of my morning just sitting in her backyard, attempting to do my readings, but in reality just enjoying the cool fall breeze. (Debatable if this is actually unfortunate- unfortunate for my schedule, fortunate for my sense of being)

Pam’s backyard is one of my all time favorite places. It’s really cute, and in the night time, fireflies like to congregate there. Fireflies are something that I’d only ever seen once in Florida, so to be able to see them here is quite a fantastic thing for me. I even caught one in my hands!! This to her, having lived in both New York and Colorado, is a common-place thing, but she still indulges me when I get super excited as a firefly brushes past me.

I spent the remainder of my day trying to accomplish my readings, and testing out my process of scientific inquiry with myself as the test subject. Having found a package of stale popcorn, I deemed it safe to eat.

However, about halfway through the bag, the rational side of me overcame and I decided to google search any possible warnings about eating four month over due ‘Movie Theatre Buttered’ microwaveable popcorn. Besides the warning about the butter going bad, I figure that the chemical preservatives in the popcorn were probably more dangerous to my health anyway, and I finished eating the bag. Developing a sense of no concern about food regulations is one of the quality perks of an undergraduate career. Not caring about where food came from as long as it is free, eating food that has fallen on the floor, and taking home left overs no matter how small are also top contenders, but tend to fall just short of the overall food quality process.

Overall, I’m just really happy to be with Pam in her cozy little house in Philly. I get to go home Sunday, and I am so grateful that my family and friends are safe and sound from the hurricane.

I’ve always loved going home for break because by the time Fall/Winter/Spring/Summer breaks come around, I’m in need for a mental vacation. As much as I love BMC, I find that I need a change of scenery in which to go, recharge for a bit, and then return ready to work again. Added plus- I live in Florida, so the weather is always warmer than it is here in Philly. Plus, home is where my mom and dad are, and I miss them a lot. I’m a bit bummed that my break going home is shortened due to something completely out of my control this year, but I’m trying to make the best of it.

I was originally supposed to go back home this Thursday, but unfortunately Hurricane Matthew has other plans for me. So instead, I’ll be sticking around Bryn Mawr for a few more days. Luckily for me, that’ll give me more time to focus on my thesis, spend time with Pam, and drink bubble tea in Philly. I’m also hoping to explore the city a bit more, find a nice place to camp out and get some work done, and then maybe just go back to Pam’s home and ~*~RELAX~*~. I’m really hoping to go to A La Mousse – which is, in my personal opinion, the best place in Philly to get bubble tea and a nice snack. If you have time, and the ability, go here. It’s really delicious, and I’ve been craving it for days.

Anyway, I’m a little bit bummed out, but I’m really trying to find the positives in this situation!!!!!

One of the most important things I’ve realized in college is that everyone studies differently. Growing up in Florida, a great deal of my educators stressed to us children that to properly study, you must be in a quiet room, without distraction, giving 100% of your focus on your work. I’ve found that’s just not the case for the vast majority of people. Finding my right study pattern is probably one of the most important take aways that I’ve received from college- but seeing other peoples study habits has been just as valuable to me because I’m able to try things out and see what best fits me as my needs change.

I’ve found that I like to study either in a public space where I can hear/see other people around me, but I’m not necessarily talking to them. I realized that I also like background noise, like a gentle humming of activity. I also really enjoy taking up lots of space at tables, because I like to spread out and stack all of my books. From friends, I’ve learned that I enjoy sitting in a space that has natural sunlight (after hours of studying, it really helps you to feel like your internal clock is still keeping up with the day). I’ve also learned that I taking a quick walk around is good for me- sometimes where you’re so focused on studying and you hit a wall, it’s hard to overcome it. But getting up really helps me out!

I found that a space for me on campus that includes most of the above things is my carrel in Carpenter library. Below is a list of top 5 things I keep at my carrel:

1. School Supplies! I always have everything I need at my carrel so I can sit down and focus on the work at hand, rather than having to gather all of my supplies. I have my books, but also pens, pencils, and paper just in case I run out from my backpack.
2. Decorations! It’s really nice to study in a space that feels comfortable. I’ve found that by decorating my carrel, I have claimed some sort of invested interest in it, which makes me feel more comfortable coming to it to study.
3. Colored pencils/a coloring book! I really enjoy doodling, and it’s the perfect mental break from studying. It’s really peaceful just to sit down and color in a coloring book because it’s mindless but you still are getting enjoyment from the activity.
4. A USB charger! I find that having a USB charger is really helpful because I can charge my phone, or plug in a side light that Lillian bought.
5. Words of Encouragement! Sometimes you’re not in the mood to study and get work done, but you have no choice. I find that little notes to pep me up really help me to refocus and be productive.

These are some things that I value and that work for me, but again, everyone is different!

My lovely girlfriend told me to write about her, so here I am. This is Pam. She’s BMC class of 2016, and is the light of my life. I met her my sophomore year of college, and I instantly had a crush on her. She was traditions mistress at the time, and was running around getting everything prepared. So naturally, I volunteered myself for any and all events that would get me closer to her. We spent the first semester of my sophomore year getting to know each other- talking late into the nights, looking at the time and realizing it was 4am, watching the sun and the moon briefly share the same sky.

I remember once we watched the first snow fall of the year from my window late at night. The sky was dark, but the little flecks came down none the less. As it began to snow heavier and heavier, the sky began to reflect purple and pinks. I could feel the cold chill through the pane, but I remember looking over at her face pressed against the glass looking out in awe at the world outside. It was probably the most at peace I’ve ever felt.

 Forward to present day- this is us now! She’s graduated (with HONORS- still so proud of her!) and working in Philly. Although we’ve had to work harder to see each other, we are still a big part of each others lives. It’s really reassuring to know that if anything happens, she’s only a phone call or a short train ride away.

In this year of #RelationshipGoals:

1. We made each other our emergency contacts for school/work
2. We’re gonna spend our first solo-holiday together!
3. We took our first vacation together (NYC!)
4. She shared her chocolate shake with me once and I think it means that we’re practically betrothed.

I am so happy that I am thesising on something that I enjoy and care about. I have known so many people who have ended up hating what they were researching. By the end of the experience, they wanted nothing to do with their topic, their major, or any of their professors. I’m really hoping that this won’t happen to me, but as of now, I don’t think it will.

As I continue to formulate my thoughts and ideas, my thesis topic will expand, alter, and change. I’m really excited to change along side my project, and I’ve already noticed that my train of thought has begun to go down several different routes. To spare you all the specific details, my area of research is focusing on queer history in Philadelphia starting in the 1950’s until present day. I am focusing on the William Way LGBT Community Center as a physical space in which to anchor my thoughts. I find memorialization through structure a really fascinating topic, so I’m looking into the ways that the physical building has impacted the queer community, as well as the mainstream heterosexual narrative of history.

I’ve started to accrue large quantities of reading materials, but rather than dreading them, I’m really enjoying them. I’m currently reading Marc Stein’s City of Sisterly & Brotherly Loves, and as I get further and further into the text, my interest grows. I think I enjoy being able to recognize the places the text is referencing, as well as the literal queerness of the work.

Today, I woke up at about 6:30am to prepare myself for my long day ahead. It was miserably cold and raining (of course), so SEPTA was late to take me into Philly. I arrived at the center, met the archivist, who then took me upstairs to the archives. I spent the next five hours stationed at a desk and chair pouring over old clippings from newspapers, flyers, meeting minutes, and other paper materials that told the story of how the center came about.

(Above: my work for the day! I went through every single piece of paper in these folders and took detailed notes. I opt for pencil and pen over computer any day.)

I found some really interesting facts about queer Philly that I otherwise would not have known. For example, briefly the center was called “Penguin Place” after a march organizer compared queer rights to giving rights to penguins. Bizarre, but thee community took with it and ran. The history of the community center is long and hard, as one would expect. Having survived governmental pushback, the AIDS epidemic, a fire, and economic issues, the center has made it to a permeant location, housing a library, archive, and community center space.

  (Above: Images of some artifacts. The top one reads “Black, lesbian and proud!” while the bottom one reads “Health care is not a right just for the straight and the white”)

All in all, my research today was a success. Bob, the archivist I met with today, was so helpful and kind. He pointed me in the right direction to begin my work, and would give me more things to go on with. I really appreciate that, as the archive houses a lot of materials, and it would take forever to go through.

(Above: More of the archive!)

Before I left my research for the day, I had to snag a photograph of my favorite wall decoration, featured below. It depicts two men on a porch in rocking chairs, with a dog. They look like they’ve lived a long life together. The caption shows one of the men leaning across to the other man, and asking,  “Were we gay?”

By far, one of my favorite things about Bryn Mawr would be the Office of Residential Life. This is my second year being a Hall Advisor for the college, and although my reapplication came from wanting to be an HA again, a huge part of it also came from wanting to work closely with Angie Sheets and ViAnna Bernard, the Director and Assistant Director, respectively.

(Above are ViAnna and Angie during the senior cruise last year. I think this photo about sums up their relationship.)

Being in college, I’ve grown to love certain professors, facility, and staff as friends. With Angie and ViAnna, I’ve been blessed to also consider them role models. Whenever anything horrible happens (and in college, it seems to happen more frequently, with greater urgency, and in emotional isolation than when living with my parents), they are always the first ones I try to seek out for advice and comfort. Although at first I was a bit wary to let my ‘bosses’ into my personal life, I realized that their check in’s came from a place of caring and compassion, not a technical formality that they had to get out of the way before business began.

(Although business does begin! Above are my two favorites doing hard work at their cozy office spaces. These are not posed. They only cleaned off their desks briefly before allowing me to do a quick photo shoot.)

I know that Bryn Mawr has always prided itself on being an environment where students form close relationships with members of the administration, but I didn’t realize how true it was. Honestly, I cherish and value my relationships with ViAnna and Angie along side relationships I have been forming since childhood. There is something about knowing that even if everything feels really horribly, I have two amazing mentors at arms reach who really do care about me as an individual, and constantly encourage me to put myself and my needs first.

(Also it’s really great if you need a laugh because Angie and ViAnna are a hoot. I’ve cried multiple times from laughter- and trust me, that’s really a cure all.)

(Plus they always have candy in their offices. ALWAYS. No matter what, and no judgements. Is it 10am on a Thursday and you’re eating a snickers? No problem, no questions.)

Overall, I’ve learned how to be a stronger leader, a better person, and hopefully a role model myself through them. All in all, I’ve learned from ViAnna and Angie to do all things with love.

I remember being in elementary school, and all the teachers warning the students not to share hair ties. They were afraid of the spread of childhood lice, but also the woes that children will create when someone borrows something and then doesn’t return it. It’s interesting that now as an adult, I seemed to have survived my college experience with only four hair ties. That’s right- four. And somehow, they seemed to have multiplied themselves. You see, it goes something like this:

I have four hair ties. Meera borrows a hair tie, I borrow one from Caroline. Caroline borrows one from Meera. Emma gives me a hair tie because she swears that she borrowed one from me, and didn’t return it, so here you go. Meera returns my hair tie, and Kate returns one to Meera, who gives it to Emma, who gives it to Caroline, who gives it back to Meera, who gives it to me. Kate sees me messing with my hair and lends me a hair tie to pull it back during class, and I forget to give it back, so now I have 7 hair ties.

I really am digging these weird college dynamics where once you misplace something it doesn’t just disappear into the stratosphere, but rather, into the hands of another person who uses it with the intent to pass it along to another person when they come into need. Wouldn’t it be interesting if we applied these same principles to other aspects of our lives?

I have been so lucky to make such amazing friends in college. I’ve heard horror stories from friends who stayed in Florida about terrible freshmen year encounters with people they thought they would be friends with, but by the third week of classes, realized that they should probably do without. I can rant and rave about how amazing the people I actively select to keep in my life are, but I think that would be a little bit too sentimental for the internet. So instead, I’m going to share why I’m thinking about friends today- it’s Kate’s 21st Birthday!

(Above- Kate and I!)

Brunch is very much a thing here at Bryn Mawr. It’s my personal favorite meal of the week, because you can grab a plate full of raspberry white chocolate scones, a cup of tea, and plop yourself down for two or so hours without feeling guilty because it’s brunch and what else should you be doing?

Kate wanted to go to a nice restaurant called White Dog Cafe for her special day, so we all took a break from the Mawr and made our way out to Wayne.

(Above: Ellen and Kate)

It was so nice to just take a break from everything, and all of us got to sit back, relax, and celebrate a special day with a very special person.
(Above and Below: Kate and Meera)

The food was delicious! As were the non-alcoholic beverages (it’s still thesising time!) I’ve only been to White Dog twice, and the ambiance is really precious. They decorate the restaurant with realistic painting of dogs. It may seem cliche, but they somehow do it in a really tasteful way. I’m sorry this isn’t very convincing, but you really must believe me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATE! I love you lots, and hope that your birthday was just what you wanted. I can’t wait to see what this year has in store for you- hopefully it’s half as good as you are <3

Today was super cool. I have *~* officially *~* started my thesis writing process. I’m focusing on LGBTQIA* spaces in Philadelphia, so I spent part of my morning in the archives of the William Way LGBT Community Center! I was so happy- John, one of the people running the archives, was so kind and helpful. Honestly, even though writing a thesis is a super daunting process, meeting up with him gave me a renewed sense of vigor that I had thought I had lost. I regret not taking photos of the inside to show you all, but it didn’t seem like the right time.

So instead, I captured a bunch of rainbow flags, and tried to capture the rainbow glass above their bright red front door! I really hope you can see it- it was really quite beautiful. The center itself seems super cool, and I really hope that the more time I spend there, the more time the staff will allow me to explore. They had this really pretty ornate door in the back, and I’ve made it my personal mission to see what’s behind it. Probably nothing special, but I won’t know until I know.

I spent the rest of my morning wandering back to the train station. SEPTA has new trains! They’re so clean! So nice! It was an enjoyable ride back to BMC in solitude, something I feel like everyone needs every once in a while.

I spent the remainder of my day in my carrel in the library. I’m legitimately blessed to have a Carpenter carrel with one of my close friends, Lillian. She and I decorated it with postcards of classical artwork, and it really is a lovely place to sit down and study. Our carrel overlooks the ledge of the library, so we have lots of natural lighting and a physical location that makes it seem like our carrel has more depth than it actually does. I’m super happy to study in it. To any underclassmen- try to get a carrel. It’s fun to decorate and makes leaving textbooks in the library so much easier. I’ve designated it as my thesis spot, because I feel like I need to have my room be more of a relaxing place this year. In addition to housing our textbooks, school supplies, and miscellaneous papers, Lillian and I also have colored pencils and a stuffed animal to make our time spent there a little more enjoyable. Would also highly recommend investing in fun things, as sometimes work overwhelms your thoughts and you just need to relax for a bit.

Welcome to Blogs at Bryn Mawr College! I want to start off by saying that this blog does not represent any personal views held by the college. They’re held by me- stressing senior, Angela Motte.

I’m really excited to be able to blog for Bryn Mawr. I’m interested in institutional memory and historical archiving, so to have a digital forum in which I will try to capture my year’s happenings is quite exciting to me on an intellectual level. It’s also really exciting because I’m finally on the graduation time crunch which forces me to do all the fun things I’ve been postponing doing. It’s really a win-win for all involved.

Today I took a break from academia for a date with my lovely girlfriend, Pam. Recent graduate of Bryn Mawr, Pam is my best friend in the entire world. I’m so lucky to still have her in the area, and I’m sure you all will be hearing a lot about her as the year goes on. We went to a cute little place in Ardmore called The Mud Room to paint pottery. Ever the practical one, I made a tray to hold spare change and my keys. Usually one for the whimsical, Pam has been know to paint garden gnomes, but this time settled for a pot to put flowers in.

It’s honestly such a cute little place, and, as usual, we were the only ones there, which made a great time to catch up and talk. Arts&Crafts have always been super relaxing for me, so it was a great time to wind down and just relax for a bit. I feel like The Mud Room is a rare gem that not a lot of Bryn Mawr students know about, so if you’re reading this- GO!!!

Post-painting, we went to Maido, a really good Japanese grocery store/restaurant. Pam got the delicious meal featured below. Although Philly has some amazing Japanese restaurants, Maido will always have a special place in our hearts. The food is well priced, and I’m always down for anything egg/rice related.

All in all, today was a good day. Tomorrow will be quasi-crunch time, as I really need to start working on some essays (being a history major, this is the majority of the graded items we must complete). But for now, I’m content knowing that I have one more night before researching needs to begin.